侯黃玉英姊妹
我是一個印度歸國華僑學生，一九五八年回到北京。讀完師範文科，在崇文區一中學就教語文課。一九七三年，在母親和妹妹的申請下，移民加拿大。
加拿大資源豐富、人民友善，多麼優秀的國家。但是，我們這第一代移民求職謀生卻不易。十多年生活在封閉的中國。生活習慣、處世待人、理念觀點，和外面的世界都不同。很難融入。惟有拚命賺錢，各人做好幾份工，希望明天會更好。結果，事不如人願，先生得了鼻咽癌，電療傷了視神經，雙目失明。憂慮惶恐籠罩著這個家。誰能每個星期帶我們去買菜？誰帶爸爸去看醫生？艱難中，有關部門派很多義工來幫我們 。他們都是基督教徒，他們的無私，他們的愛心感動和激勵著我們。「基督徒」為什麼那麼特別？不求回報，只等待將來上帝的審判。年中我也得了哮喘症。我們怨天憂人，焦頭爛額，在苦海中掙扎…..找不到平安，只有恐懼。怕我們死了誰來照顧兩個孩子，漸漸焦慮成了我生活的主調。丈夫是因病失明，而我呢，我眼「瞎」了，當然就沒有深入探索，為什麼人變成「基督徒」就不一樣了！而我太差，也不敢做「基督徒」。多少痛苦就這樣白白受。
去年，因健康見差，醫生建議不能上落樓梯，搬進葡萄園。這裡從工作人員到住戶，幾乎處處可見基督徒，他們的愛心、平安喜樂的生活態度激發我深省。在對門鄰居的引導下我開始讀聖經，讓我明白基督教強調與神的關係，與神同行。耶和華是愛，基督是救贖恩典，聖靈是感動，三一上主有大能。在人不能，在神就沒有不能。基督徒的平安喜樂是神的旨意。我開始祈禱，求神赦免我的罪，與神和好。我的心平靜下來，恐懼慢慢減少。在神的懷抱中我必不怕遭害。讀以弗所書更明白了神賜予各種屬靈的福氣。神揀選我們成為有盼望的人，預定我們在基督裡成為新人，得到神的兒女的身份，神告訴我們祂的心意要與主聯合，萬物復興。我們太有福氣了。與神同行就是生命的目的。因此我要求受洗成為一個真正的基督徒。決心按聖經的話過基督徒的生活。以馬內利堂，事奉神至忠，當中一位姊妹，每主日下午來我家中，將當日牧師宣講的信息給我講解，給我特別個人輔導。他們都是神的使者，是我良師，特別感激。
Testimony of Yu Ying Hou
I am an Indian born Chinese. After completing high school in India, I came to Beijing, China in 1958 to attend college, studying education. Upon graduation, I became a teacher, teaching Chinese language in a high school. In 1973, I was able to emigrate to Canada with the help of my mother and younger sister.
Canada is a friendly country with a lot of resources. But to us, the first generation of immigrants, making a living was not easy. Having lived in China, a country isolated from the outside world, for over 10 years, it was not easy for us to integrate into the new society. We only tried hard to earn money, taking up several jobs, hoping that tomorrow could be better.
Unfortunately, my husband got cancer and radiation damaged his optic nerve, causing him to lose his eyesight. Worry and anxiety engulfed the family. Who would take us grocery shopping and attending doctor appointments? Luckily, a department from the government sent some volunteers to help us. They were all Christians. Their unselfishness and love moved us and encouraged us. “Why were these Christians so special, seeking no returns, just looked up to God?”
In the meantime, I was diagnosed with asthma. We complained and worried and there was no peace of mind, only fear. “Who was going to look after our two children?” Living with fear and anxiety had became a part of our life. I did not try to find out why becoming a Christian could make things different. I thought I did not deserve to be a Christian. I wasted a lot of time living a helpless life.
Last year, because the doctor said I could no longer climb up and down the stairs, I could not live with my daughter anymore. Then I moved to Vintage Garden. Here I find Christians among the staff and the residents. Their love, peace and joy cause me to reflect. With the help of a neighbor, I start to study the Bible. I come to know that God is love, Christ is our Savior and the Holy Spirit lives in our heart. The God of Trinity is almighty, and with God everything is possible. I begin to pray and ask God to forgive my sins. Having made peace with God, my heart begins to calm down and worry and fear diminishes. Studying the book of Ephesians, I understand God has given us all kinds of blessings and we become new persons in Christ. We are the children of God. How blessed are we! Walking with God is my goal in life. I want to be baptized to become a real Christian, following the teachings of the Bible. Toronto Emmanuel Church serves God faithfully. A sister from the church comes to my place every Sunday afternoon to teach me what the pastor preached during Sunday worship and gives me individual guidance. They are God sent people and have become my teachers. I thank them very much.
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